Forever doing ‘The Crotch Widener’.
Gahh I’m sick of this. I have this concept of the perfect life that has been inscribed so deeply into my brain that it almost seems like it’s the logical way to live. I know how I view my body, myself in general I guess and what my soul purpose in the world is, is so far from the truth and I tell myself this but I still choose to think with this toxic view of how life should be. I’m tired of beating myself up over little things, I want to be better but I am constantly at war with everything around me. It needs to stop but I don’t know how to end this madness.